No awkward silences...

krazy0077 @ 2008-09-01T23:18:00

2008-09-02T04:19:09Z

"You know i'll haunt your dreams,
With all these pieces you stole of me"

krazy0077 @ 2008-07-11T21:29:00

2008-07-12T02:29:39Z

Sometimes you just got to say FUCK IT & have a good time.

This is what I've been waiting for

2008-04-06T09:55:09Z

It's 4:47am.
I run in 2 hours & 13 minutes.

I just ate my breakfast. Yum.
I've eaten pasta & mucho carbs the few days.

I think this is the most nervous/excited
I have ever been. This is kind of how I felt
when I tested for my black belt.

I love to run. It is free therapy...like
my own anger management.

I think I might be crazy for doing this...
but oh well. Bring that shit on.

I'll crawl my way to the finish if I have to

Well Said

2008-03-08T04:58:14Z

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

krazy0077 @ 2008-03-06T13:08:00

2008-03-06T19:12:36Z

"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going."

krazy0077 @ 2008-03-02T18:16:00

2008-03-03T00:17:00Z

Nick, Greco, and Kelley living in the same apartment....
could be the most outrageous thing ever.

As of right now Greco and Nick will most likely be roomies this fall.
Kelley doesn't know yet.

Either way it will be insane.
Three of my favorite people living under one roof.

Weakness...my ultimate fear

2008-02-18T06:31:04Z

I thought I'd be the last girl to ever let myself fall.
I keep looking back at these past 11 months
and wondering, what happened?
I was always the girl who didn't need a guy.
I was so strong.
I never had emotion.
I could leave at any moment...
and force myself to not feel a thing.
I was always in control.
The bitch in charge.
There was no room in my future...
for a guy.
I always stayed back & closed off.
Now look at me?
I've become what I hated.
A weak girl.
What has this "love" done to me?

He drives me crazy & I try to push him away,
but the truth is...
I feel so incomplete without him.

Look at me now.
I am a weak girl.

Woah woah...bitch

2007-11-19T16:29:24Z

I pretty much want to knock some bitches skull in with a fuckin sledgehammer. Seriously I wouldn't even hesitate....I'd break her fuckin nose and rip out her ratty ass hair. Watch who and what you fuck with. Back off.

krazy0077 @ 2007-04-30T18:07:00

2007-04-30T23:15:26Z

NICK IS COMING TO PROM! I'M SO EFFIN EXCITED!

Graduation is 26 days away!

Running

2007-04-26T02:02:08Z

I'm so thankful I ran track freshmen year. That's what made me run cross country sophomore year and every year after that. Now I can't even imagine what these past three years would have been like without cross country and track. After watching the CC State meet junior year is pretty much when I became a "runner". I was just inspired by those athletes so I started running off season and partcipating in races.

These past few months I've realized how much I love to run. It's something no one can take away from me. When I'm stressed, mad, or sad, it's the one thing that can take my mind off everything. Sometimes I sit in school or at work wishing I could be outside running. That's love right there.

Running in the ONLY thing that truly makes me feel good about myself. Running gives me the ultimate feeling. Words can't describe how much I love running. It is the absolute greatest thing I've ever done for myself.

My goals are 1.Marathon this fall 2.Boston Marathon 3. Ultra Marathon

While I was running....

2007-02-21T00:57:37Z

There were people...
who made an impact,
had unbelievable times with,
that meant so much,
People that changed your life,
sometimes for better
and sometimes for worse.

You think you could never forget...

Well what happens when you do forget?
You go days, then weeks, then months without a thought...
Does that mean they didn't mean as much as you once thought?
Did they really not make a difference in your life?

Sometimes you put years into these things
but then you forget....

So was it all just a waste?

Tis the season to be...jolly?

2007-02-15T23:44:53Z

I am so effin bored tonight. No one is up at the Y. Uh the boredom. But yeah havent done this one....

*L.O.V.E*
L is for the way you look at me...
The kind of person you're first attracted to.:	the one who makes me laugh
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	hell no
How do you show someone you're interested?:	talk it up and flirt away
Is there such thing as a perfect relationship?:	nope
How do you know when someone thinks you're attractive?:	usually when they drop the "you're beautiful" bullshit
How do you know 'it's right'?:	i don't.
Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?:	rule 2. no dating a close friend
What do you wear to attract the opposite sex?:	ive got nothing to show off...so jeans and a hoodie
What makes someone sexy?:	it all depends
Are you uncomfortable staring in to someone's eyes who likes you?:	nope
Do you come across as confident, sexy, friendly, subtle, or innocent?:	bitchy, even though it wasn't an option
When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it?:	make it quickly then look away
Your favorite colors of eyes in the opposite sex...:	gray or green
What makes you sexy?:	nothing.
O is for the only one I see...
Describe your signifcant other or crush.:	ain't got one
When are you the most happy in a relationship?:	when i feel comfortable with them, which is very rare
Do you believe in soul mates? Have you found yours?:	haha what a load...
How many people have broken your heart?:	none. I did that myself.
Would you ever cheat or have you ever cheated?:	once or twice back in the day
Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back?:	not love but I had strong feelings
Have you ever given someone your entire heart?:	I dont let myself be that vunerable
What kind of things do you do to show someone you are theirs?:	nothing.
Is there ever a 'happily ever after'?:	no way.
Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?:	be single
Are you a hopeless romantic?:	not at all
What's the most romantic thing anyone's ever done for you?:	nothing. I don't like romance
What are you like when you're in love?:	dont know. ask someone.
Describe your dream person.:	n/a
V is very, very extraordinary...
What has been the weirdest date you've ever been on?:	sitting in his camaro in traffic, yeah
And the very best?:	nick cooked me dinner, then went to the parktil dark.
What's the most money a boyfriend or girlfriend has spent on you?:	$40- Chris
And the most you've spent on them?:	hmm $45 on russ
Which one of your relationships was the shortest?:	one week
Which was the longest?:	5ish months- Chris
Are you friends with any of your exes?:	not one of them, well off and on with Nick
Do you wish you were back together with any of your exes?:	no, thats the past
Do you ever have dreams about your exes?:	unfortnately
If you want to get married, what age?:	never
Are you open or closed because of past hurt?:	im closed because I choose to be
What is your philosophy on love?:	it takes time. it takes trust and patience. some people will fall in love over and over, others will only fall in love once.
Who would you die for?:	my family and my country
Who do you secretly yearn for?:
E is even more than anyone that you adore...
The reason you love your signficant other or crush.:
Would you change yourself for someone you loved?:	everyone says no to this, but we all know it happens
Would you give up a dream for someone you loved?:	i dont know
Would you quit a job for someone you loved?:	not if i worked my ass off to get there
The thing you love about relationships.:	always having someone there that is for you only
The thing you love about being single.:	DOING WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT! Going out every weekend. Clubbing. Partying all I want. Talking to any guy I want.
The person who's on your mind right now...:	no one in particular
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I want a theme song when walk through the door...

2007-01-16T04:33:36Z

Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, real hard in love
She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all

Never ever met her at all
you wish you never ever met her at all

krazy0077 @ 2007-01-06T14:53:00

2007-01-06T20:58:09Z

Here's to a new year!
2007

Bye bye grudges
Everyone gets a clean slate

Well fuck it.

2006-12-10T22:38:12Z

So last night Nicole, Lauren E, Erica and me went clubbin...yeah it was the most fun I've had in awhile. Actually the last two weekends I've spent with those girls have been. Anyways so while I was dancing something sort of came to me...

I am so done with be unhappy and sad all the freakin time. This is my senior year so I need to start making the most of it. When the summer ended so did "the group" and you know what, I accept that. I am tired of hearing "oh let's get together, or let's do something this weekend, or hey i'll have you guys over."...9 out the 10 times it never happens.

I've got better things to do with my time then sit around bitchin and being depressed like this.

I am not letting anyone upset me or bring me down anymore. I'm not gonna let some guy intrupt me having a good time either. If you can't be ok with the fact that I'm going to hangout with other guys and going clubbin' and dance with other guys and possibly drink then sorry but you're just not worth it. Ain't no man holding me down. Uh uh.

I'm 18 and single...This is MY senior year so I'm doing it MY way. If someone don't want to be part of it then fine, don't. Nobody is going to bring me down. I am not trying to impress anyone. It's time to get this fuckin started...

Im sorry.

2006-12-04T23:18:58Z

I didn't think I'd be sad...but I am.

I didn't want to hurt him. He's wonderful, and sweet, and incredible. But he doesn't need a girl like me. There's no point in "us" if you don't both feel the same way.

"I know you dont want to get hurt, hey same here but You're closed up and as hard as I try I can't get you to open up. It's like you dont want to have anything with feeling."- him.

You can't be happy with someone else to your happy with yourself.One day I'll have it again, just got to work myself out and make myself happy first.

Its been awhile..

2006-11-22T00:07:12Z

School is sucky. I can't wait to graduate.
I got all my acceptance/scholarship stuff from CMSU.
About 99% chance thats where I'll be next fall.

I've been running before school every morning.
When time allows I run/workout again after school.
Im the happiest when Im running.

Now I work at Bhalls too. I enjoy it.
I work a lot but thats how I want it.
Why waste time doing boring shit when I could be making money?

Drugs are stupid. I can't seem to understand why people waste their money.

Not so much into drinking or partying anymore.

Thanksgiving is 2 days away...so what am I thankful for?
Family and Running of course.
Nicole Buck.

Wtf?

2006-10-28T14:05:37Z

Body Fat percentage: 25
'Ideal' weight : 125 pounds

wtf? I was told differently back in august.

CARDS ARE WORLD SERIES CHAMPS THOUGH!

working...

2006-10-20T22:11:57Z

At work and bored. I'll update sunday after CC meet and such.

1. do you wear a bra to sleep?:
usually no

2. have u kissed any one on ur top 8 list on myspace?:
yes

3. are you happy with your looks?:
no but they can be improved if they must

4. do you think you are pretty/gorgeous/beautiful?
uh no

5. are you a girly girl?
not so much...occassionally yes

6. do you straighten/gel your hair everyday?:
straighten my hair like twice a week

7. do you hate cramps?
never really get the period ones so no....but they side ones when running yes i hate those

8. are you tall/short for ur age?:
Tall duh

9. do you like someone right now?
yeppers

10. When was the last time someone touched/slaped your butt?
yesterday

11. do you think you're conceited?:
nope

12. do you like drama?:
No...because it brings out my evil mean side. I love watching it tho haha funnny stuff.

13. are you a bitch?:
Yeah i can be

14. Last time you had sex?:
loonnnggg long time ago

15. who would you like to smack right now?
Chris's shanky sister

16. which class is most boring in school?:
Advanced Comp.

17. What class do you love the most?:
A&P because of the acualy material we learn....and weightlifting just cuz krystal and me talk all hour :)

18. is there any type of rumor going around about you?:
hmm none that Ive heard of

19. do you call anybody by there last name?
sometimes

1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?
he was too wild for me....yes i know hard to believe

2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
last night

3. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
sitting in newspaper

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
talking to Chris

5. Are you any good at math?
haha no

6. Your prom night?
overrated but still a lot of fun

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
nope

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
no but soon Ill have too

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
well duh

10. Last thing received in the mail?
cell phone bill

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
3 bottles of water. 1 liter of water. Orange Juice. Chocolate milk. Coffee.

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
yeah, when its important

13. Who did you lose your virginity to?
I'd rather be shot then say

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
yeah

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
gettin my braces off

16. what do you hate?
school, traffic, math in general.

17. Any plans for tonight?
sit at work, then chill with Chris, then go to sleep

18. Do you like the ocean?
i love it

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?
no but my Dad gets one every year

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
yes

22. Something you are excited about?
DISTRICTS tomorrow. my last CC race

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
LIME

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
nope

25. Describe your keychain:
i have my senior 07 one, high heel one, beer bottle opener one, giant diamond ring one

26. Where do you keep your change?
everywhere

27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
sometime at school this week

28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
red pea coat, and a brown furry coat

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
closed of course

Sickness

2006-10-14T21:30:01Z

Go figure the week of conference and the ONE weekend Im actually off when Dizzle and Pate are here...I get sick.

Fuck Strep throat and feeling like shiat.

I didn't get to run in GAC'S yesterday. My freakin SENIOR year and I couldn't run.

Dizzle is here and I feel to crappy to go do anything. I don't wanna get everyone else sick. This sucks.

Districts next weekend. My season is almost over::tear::

Metro

2006-10-07T00:09:36Z

Metro 24:15...ehh not one of my better times but eh. Metro was a fun meet, actually I think it is my favorite course to run. The weather was perfect and the course is so fast paced. Just love it. We all messed around, cheered people on, Spell pulled my pants down...haha it was so funny.

GACs and Districts left then Im done. I love running but my body is hurting.

Homecoming tomorrow :)

I start working every monday and wednesday next month. Hell yeah.

We are both anti-love. This makes me happy.

Take a look

2006-10-01T23:33:53Z

Take a good hard look at yourself, your life and the people in it. Figure out who and what matters...it'll surprise you.

I can't wait til get out of here. Go into the military and stay the hell away from this place and these people.

Life is great, not saying it isn't, just hate it here.
I can't wait til I'm gone.

Whoopidy dooo

2006-10-01T06:49:37Z

Warrenton yesterday...new PR 22:53. Freakin 4 places away from medaling uhh gayness. My mom got my Congrats balloons, it was so cute. Raylyn wrapped my ankle amazingly. Haha that girl cracks me up. Bridget and some dude raced at the end, it was the highlight of the meet lol. Boo ran her PR too. Yay.

Friday night with Erica was way random. Went over to Nicks for awhile. He is so different now.
Then met up with Natey. We were going to some party out in New Melle then Erica got car sick, all over the side of my car lol so we came home. Hottubbed and smoked cigars. Tim came over and chilled. Took some retarded ass pictures. We went to Steak n' Shake at 1am. Met up with her friend keith up there. Came back...went to sleep. Woke up, went and got pictures at 9am. haha it was interesting. Every phone call we got that night was from a guy, it was so weird.
"Coppers...am..bu..lance.....BIG ASS FIRETRUCK" haha twas a fabulous night.

Morning came...Went to doctor, got my ankles wrapped and my knee ultra sounded or w/e. At noon went to work. Was boring as hell. Currently looking for a second job, again. Tonight didn't work out so Dinner with Chris, went to his friend Tony's for a bit then to Chris's house. Yeah he is awesome so everyone can fuck off.

The Games are off at my house, pretty much everything is. No more planning of any sort or effort in general. Just gonna roll with it from now on.

I absolutely LOVE cross country but i can't wait to start training hxc when it's over. Lifting as much as I can, twice a day workouts. Hell I'll have time to run/workout with Nicole L. It'll be nice...gonna try out yoga, pilates, all that good stuff.

Powderpuff game wednesday. Metro meet @ Jefferson Barracks thursday. Friday go have fun. Saturday Homecoming :)

Dance, Dance

2006-09-24T19:55:46Z

Went clubbin last night with Erica, Angie and Liz. I can't wait to do it again! Except I was so self concious the whole time, i felt so fat and gross dancing next to some of those girls. I try to look cute but I always find myself surrounded by these gorgeous girls. At school, at parties, basically everywhere.

I've been working my ass off day after day but I see no difference in my body. I'm lifting during school, running hellas after school, and do ab workouts every night. Go running on weekends, I dance a lot and I'm up and moving whenever I can be.

All I want is some definition but all I'm getting is fatter. I hate being tall. It makes me feel even more massive. Why do I keep gaining weight? It's depressing when I was a size 4 two months ago and now Im a size 6.

Hitting the Panic button at 2am

2006-09-23T19:03:13Z

Koch Park race was yesterday. I'm finally starting to pick it up. Getting closer to Amanda every races which is my goal. New PR...23:52 woohoo
Afterwards all the CC girls spent the night at my house....haha what a night.
We ate a lot...(hey we're runners we can pig out all we want.)
We all searched for the black in us and attempted to dance. lol.
Everyone was teaching Astrid some homecoming moves.
Ate more food.
Tye-dyed tshirts. They look awesome.
Elizabeth jumped in my 58 degrees
Played drinking games....with soda. Effin' hiliarious.
Alyssa chugged 2 liters. It was crazy.
Went to Walmart. Bought glowsticks. More TP.
Had a mini-rave in my basement. then in my backyard.
More dancing.
Ate more food.
Ramer dances like Mell Mell lol.
Spilt into groups to go TP coaches.

I drove krystal, Elizabeth, Krysta, Bridget, and Alyssa out to Parkers house in Wentzville. Started TPing then the lights went on so we ran to my car. Accidentally hit the panic button on my keys. lmao it was so loud. Chilled at steak n' shake until we thought coach was asleep. Got lost driving and end up on some freaky foggy road. It was like from a scary movie scene. Went back and TPed so more. We got him good. Got home around 3:30am.

The other group of girls got stood up by a ride. 3 girls were stranded haha. Had to pile like 8 of them into Amandas sunfire. Called and tried convincing me they got pulled over by a cop. Didn't fall for it lol. They were suppose to TP coach Maritz....but no. Instead they TPed Delgado (even tho ya kno, she's not even our coach. whatever. I was pissed) Um they ate cereal at delgados house...came back to my house like 4:30am.

By 5am pretty much everyone passed out on my floor. I'm currently on 2 hours of sleep and sitting at work. hah. All in all it was a fun ass night.

Grr damn boys. I like this guy but I just don't know. I don't want to waste my time if I'm just being lead-on or whatever. Right it feels like I am. Uh I overthink things too much. Suppose to go out tonight, I'll probably get blown off. Eh.

Elizabeth is coming to homecoming with us. This year will be better than last. ;)